Good News?????

Well, life has thrown all sorts of twists and turns and craziness over the last week. It's been good, but shocking and exciting too. On the work side, things are good and stressful. Last week my boss over lunch brought up my friend T and asked if he still worked where he did. We discussed that a little. I was very careful not to tell him T and I have been talking some. That same day T had emailed me to say we needed to go for lunch/dinner to plan for my work future. That got me excited. Then this week I did some investigating to find out where things were.

My boss still hasn't talked with T's people yet (well as of yesterday anyway) and had been talking with someone else. They had discussed "renting office space" with then intention of eventually selling out and phasing my boss out. My boss turned it down since it's located downtown and after picking the brain of a few clients realizing most of them wouldn't stay at that location. I wouldn't either. So whether D sells to T or goes to another place I'm out. I wasn't going to leave if he just rented his own office space and it was still him, his wife and I, but if he "rents" from another accountant they have techs there. I don't feel an obligation and I want to go where I know I'll be happy. I just need T to email me back so I can secure my new job and then maybe talk to D.

Last weekend was fun. I had an enjoyable time and the SA conference. Some of it was totally cheesy, as usual, but we danced and partied it up good. I had a few good things happen ;-) and a few creepy things too. Nothing exciting. Sunday night was really fun. My good friend J called me and we talked till 2 am. So much fun. I haven't seen him for 2 years so we had some to catch up on. Only reason we even hung up at 2 am was the fact his cordless phone was dying. He's coming up tomorrow for a friends wedding. He's one of the groomsmen and I'm helping serve the punch. The nice thing is the wedding reception is in the afternoon so we can hang out all night.

So somethings are looking up, but until everything is a little more settled I'm still stressed. I'm managing to sleep OK but I don't have much of an appetite for sure. October is coming up soon and I need to figure stuff out. The best news is I get to go visit E, J, V, and A in Australia in January. That's when I'm planning on going and hopefully soon can book my tickets. J even liked the sound of the trip and he might join me and have fun there too. Life is good and I'm pretty dang happy!!!!

OH!!!!!!! and I forgot to mention the best or craziest part of the news. Mom called me last week to inform me that my nephew and his wife of just over a year are expecting a baby in December and making her officially a great-grandmother. That makes me a Great Aunt. HOLY CRAP I FEEL OLD!!!!!!!

Laughed till I cried and almost peed!!!!

OK, I finally decided to do something fun for myself a couple of months ago and bought tickets to go see the Scottish comedian Danny Bhoy. I learned about him from my boss and watched some stuff on YouTube and thought he was so funny. I found out he was coming here and bought 2 tickets right away. So, last night Felisha and I went to go see his show at the Winspear center. Oh my goodness I thought I was going to die laughing.

The show was fantastic and I got laughing so hard I had tears. I had to hold back some or I could have really lost it and been laughing so hard I wouldn't have been able to breathe (quite a funny scene to watch me like that but not necessarily in public). I was so glad I had gone to the bathroom too because I'm sure I could have peed myself at some point. Felisha was laughing just as hard. Afterwards I bought the DVD he had (only $20) and then stood in line to meet him and have him sign it. That was fun too. So worth every penny.

So if you can handle some good humour, a little bit of language (he is Scottish after all) you would love him. There are some good clips on YouTube and he writes some funny things on his blog page too. Go to http://www.dannybhoy.com/dannybhoy/ and be prepared to laugh. I hope you enjoy it, and if not, that's okay too. Everyone has their own sense of humour. He just happens to appeal to mine.

Stress = Insomnia

Well, I've definitely figured out some of my sleeping issues. Last night I slept better for the first time in almost 2 weeks. I got a little bit of a relief about the job stress. There has been some communication again between them, but that is on hold for a bit, but knowing there is communication again relieves my mind. I'm able to feel a little better and pray harder that things end up going well and that the new job thing will happen this year.

Also, the crazy dreams that afflicted me a couple of weeks ago have had a somewhat resolve. Found out a couple of things that just put the crazy thoughts to rest and now I'm not thinking about it. It's just so funny to me that the stress is there during the day and I might complain about it but I never really physically feel it at all, that is until I try to sleep. I had a nap after work yesterday and then didn't go to bed till about 1am but, I feel more awake and vibrant today than I did all day yesterday. I crashed and burned so bad yesterday I could hardly do anything at work. I was lucky to survive. I'm just glad today is a better day and now, I just need to catch up on the last 10 days of sleepless nights.

Duh, Duh, Duh, Duh

This is how I feel today UUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There, now I got it out. Things have been going crazy. So many things, so many stresses. The only reason I'm somewhat happy today is that I don't have to work today. I'm enjoying just sitting around being peaceful. I've already been to the Chiropractor, and am currently chilling while doing laundry. It's helping get rid of some frustrations.

Yesterday at work was another bad day. Got a phone call from a client who's been driving us crazy. We've already talked to him a billion times over the last month and on one of his "visits" he said they had changed some numbers. I was very firm in saying they can't do that and once they give us the info that's it, it goes untouched or it screws it all up. So he got me the new account balances and I thought things were straight. My boss finally finished the company's stuff and then he calls yesterday saying he had gotten a message from their bookkeeper that she had finished fixing all of the 2009 numbers. He's not sure what she meant and she was gone for the day. I was like, well, you're going to have to tell her to undo what she did because you can't do that after we've gotten it and we've already finished it. I was so frustrated. I asked J&D for a gun and any target to shoot. J was nice enough to send me home at that point. It was 2:30 by then.

So, that was the start to my long weekend. I also have very sore calves today. We did an exercise Wednesday called death by calves and I was fine Wednesday, hurt a little yesterday, and want to die today. It's all good though. I also injured my shoulder a bit Wednesday but that's on the mend too. The only other frustrating thing (than my crappy job and the crappy situation there of maybe not moving on) is how stupid dreams are keeping me awake at night. I had a dream last week, and it was the same dream over and over. Same people, same basic scenario just maybe different locations.

I can't remember it all but it's been driving me crazy lately. It's causing me too think too much over stupid stuff that doesn't mean anything and shouldn't be important but now it's there, it's in my mind and I'm going nuts. I shouldn't even go there but my dreams did which now means it won't leave my head and it's been contributing in part to my sleepless nights. Thinking too much is never a good thing. It can be quite hazardous to your health.

So today, I'm trying to clear my head, stop thinking and enjoy the beautiful day that it is outside. I'm going out with the girls tonight to do some oogling and giddy girls night. Tomorrow, lunch with a friend (which is always a blast and usually lasts a few hours). Life is strange, confusing, frustrating but good. I just hope it only gets better from here!!!

Panic Attack!!

I'm starting to get very scared. Over lunch today J happened to mention that her and her husband went "office space" shopping on Sunday. That scared the crap out of me. I have no idea what this means. I don't want them to continue working. I am losing my mind. This tax season has been one of the hardest ones for me to survive. J is getting so bad to deal with and I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.

Now, I love my bosses, they have been so good to me, I am just so ready for a change and I don't think I can tell them I'm leaving. I'm too loyal and I know if I leave they have to sell. I don't know how to do that to them. I have started hating my job everyday and that's not a good thing for me. Even when I had days where I went home early I was hating it. I also need to be in a place where I can go away whenever I want and not just during the months of June to August. That is so confining and making it hard to want to go anywhere. I need some changes.

I would love to buy a house in the next two years and I know where I am I won't be able to do that either. I got desperate and emailed T about it today too asking if there was anything he could do to help to remind D that the offer is there. I just about started to cry I'm so frustrated. I just need a change of scenery so bad. I feel very stuck in life right now.

It doesn't help that I have been struggling with other decisions in my life that are keeping me awake at night. I hate it when I think too much. Keeps me awake at night. So, here's hoping and praying that things go well for me. I'm not sure how much longer I can stay here at this job, and the possibility of it going on for a year or two scare me to death. Pray for me that it all goes well and I'm able to have the changes I so desperately need to move forward in life. Every other decision seem to hang on this one thing and it's driving me nuts because I'm not making any progress. Inhale, Exhale, just breathe and I'll make it through.....somehow.

Easter

Well, life is continuing fairly nicely. Mom is doing okay and got to spend a couple of days down in Lethbridge with Joan which was nice. She had said she would put the meat in whether we decided on ham, turkey or just a roast as usual for Sunday but my brother and his wonderful wife decided to do Easter at their house. It was really nice. Karen and her family went to moms for Conference on Sunday and just after noon I got a call from Cache. I had decided to stay home in the morning and watch it at my house and then go to moms in the afternoon. Well, Cache was not impressed I wasn't there but by the time he called I was in the car on my way.

I have this message on my machine that has him saying in a rather annoyed tone, "I'm at grandma's". He says that a couple of times and I can hear Karen saying, "okay, say goodbye", but then Cache says, "no one's talking". It's really funny. We all had a lot of fun at moms house. We enjoyed the talks and Cache even napped so he was pretty happy by the time we got to Dave and Amanda's. I think it was nice for mom to have us all together and not have to think. Around lunch time she said to Karen and I that she didn't know what she'd do if she didn't have her family all right there, living so close. I think it has been a great blessing in our lives and especially in mother's life to be able to have that. We are very fortunate. Technology has even been great for Kathy to call lots and email and stuff.

I got to relax and enjoy Friday and Saturday and do not much of anything, the only crappy thing was that I now have the cold that my boss had last week and the week before. Oh well, nothing I can't handle and can't work through. Life is still good and we still have each other to lean on. I'll tell you later about the "man hunt" some of us went on. It was so funny and good for a laugh. Definitely was a great ending to the week on Friday!!!!

Beautiful Tribute

Well, today was Bob's funeral. It was quite nice. All four boys gave a lovely tribute to their father and my mother said some wonderful words too. I was nice to be included in their family and to be made a part of that moment. They all looked well and held up very nicely. I was impressed with how well Karen's kids behaved too. They were both very good. Karen and Diana both had to go out with the babies for most of it but it was still good.

I got to see a lot of wonderful people I normally don't get to see and I had some wonderful visits. That to me was great. It was just nice all around. The kids had made some posters of pictures for the foyer and they had a video of pictures set up outside of the RS room. So many people came to see mom and the boys and visit. I'm kind of glad this time I was able to wander around and didn't have to do the meet and greet. It's a long day that's for sure.

Tomorrow mom goes to Southern Alberta and they'll have the burial. I hope it goes well. OH!!! and the good news was that they were able to get an internet feed up and available to other people that the friend in American Fork and his two grandchildren on missions were able to watch the service over the internet. That was a lovely service provided for them and I'm sure it meant the world to many people. Now to make sure mom has a good life. She certainly is surrounded by an abundance of us to help make it happen